I just wondered why people chose to come to this site?
I have always had a voyeuristic nature ever since my teens when my neighbour’s bathroom window overlooked my bedroom and a woman in her 30s would take a shower every morning and late evening like clockwork. I fell in love with her body and the way she would go through her routine of lotions cleansing her body and it was very horny for a 14-year-old teenager.
One day she saw me in my bedroom watching her and I expected her to scream or shout pervert or something like that but she just turned around and carried on with her shower.
This went on for about another year before she moved and some student guys rented the place and I lost interest then as I don’t rock that way.
But I was left with that burning feeling of voyeurism which later developed into a hedonistic lifestyle through university and my early 30s.
I started to travel and work around the world for two years and then I met my Japanese wife in Japan and my life completely changed as it normally does in most cases and settled into a happy life of marriage and c___dren.
We decided to move to southern Poland ten years ago as we both work from home as I was working in IPTV then. So we chose to live in the Polish mountains and it was the best choice we ever made as it is amazingly peaceful and beautiful here.
Six months ago I was hospitalised with a very serious case of Covid19 and I was on a ventilator for ten days and was discharged after 15 days. But sadly it has left me with long term damage to my lungs where I only have 70% capacity now and slight damage to my heart. Plus I had brain fog which is horrid and it feels like the onset of Alzheimer’s disease at the age of 46; even tying a simple shoelace can sometimes be frustrating as you completely forget how to do it.
My libido is almost shot to pieces and things will get a lot better but it will take months and months to get back to the condition that I was like pre-covid.
My wife has been amazingly supportive throughout all of this and I love her and adore everything about her and it is so frustrating not being able to share that intimacy that was so prevalent in our lives before.
About a month ago we were talking about our teenage years and I mentioned my teenage voyeurism and the more I talked about it the more I started to become aroused and we had a clumsy but intimate evening.
So to avoid getting arrested by the police for being a peeping tom in my village my wife suggested we try porn, but that doesn’t really interest me as it is too plastic and artificial.
After a bit of searching on the internet, I came across this site and we both agreed that we would give it a go and see if it helps and in some ways it has.
We are a long way off our being anywhere near our normal intimacy that we used to share but we both enjoy the site and it is a start of a long road back, but it is nice to share this part of my past life with my wife.
I was inspired to write this after speaking to @Sophia_Elon last night and they are such a sweet couple, which they remind me so much why I love my wife.
Anyway, that’s my story why I came here and what’s yours?
i have some gypsy b___d and Lived for years in a small caravan camp (woonwagenkamp )in the Netherlands till a few years back where everything was always close to your neighbers and evry thing was always open to everyone day and night curtains were never closed doors were not locked everyone knew each other etc in the summers we all enjoyed swimming together in our private pool of the camp usually was it nude swimming for old and young it didn’t matter often you walked in to the neighbor girl for a cup of sugar and did she just come out of the bathroom butt naked or you came for coffee with the neighbor who had just taken a shower and not dressed yet or you just came out of the trailer and saw the neighbor toples at her set up swimming pools it was all very normal in the trailer park after the camp was closed i came to live in a house in the city and never knew what it was called but for a while did you miss it in the city the people are diverent everything closed to each other and very shielded so after a while searching the internet i accidentally came across a similar website against this was nice to see but wasn’t it after a while of searching i came across vhtv and bin here on and off for a few years now liked it and loved it wen i started talking with ppl on the forum till a few weeks ago wen the s__t started to begin more and more now im on my last few weeks here then im gone becaus i dont support those things i know i will gona mis this al greeting from the netherlands
for the ppl who dont know a woonwagenkamp here are som pictures
Man flesh. I’ve been a voyeur my whole life. I don’t know why but I just find watching people fascinating. I don’t particularly want them knowing I watch, so it was always peering through the crack of a door not closed over properly, or curtain twitching. I can’t pass a house with open curtains at night, just got to look inside and see what dem folks be doin’. A lit window is an invitation to observe. And I’m not looking for sex. God, there’s enough porn on the internet to cater for more than my needs at any given moment. I just like watching people. Interacting, laughing, being pensive and thoughtful, going crazy when they think nobody is watching and really letting their inner soul shine.
My housemate challenged me recently, about the fact that I watch others but hate being observed myself. I struggled to answer then, but I know now that it’s because as an actor, I go out on stage and expose rawness to the world. I have to endure the scrutiny of hundreds of people nightly, criticising my looks, my voice, my talent. And that leaves a person feeling somewhat vulnerable in the world. So, when I’m not on stage bearing my soul, I prefer to hide away in curtained places with low light and pretend I’m invisible.
Finding voyeur sites has given me a way to escape. I get involved, I wonder about their lives and their thoughts, I accidentally click on the bathroom cams just as they’re taking a crap and retreat slightly nauseated, but you know, as someone coming from a broken home whose family is somewhat fractured and whose friends have all but vanished into the mists of time, I get a strange sense of family from some of the apartments here at VH-TV. it’s actually tangibly painful when they leave the project. I’ve invested so many hours of my time getting to know them (their projected self anyhow) so it stings when thy decide to call it quits. I’ve been visiting VH-TV for four of the five years it’s been around, and before that I’d visit RLC. I’m an odd fish, I know, but I’m a deep feeling one. Past my best and a little lonely, far too verbose for my own good and probably on quite a number of ‘ignore user’ lists. However, there are people who visit here that I like, respect, and feel a certain kinship with. Even if we don’t like the same things always, and that feels a little bit like having present friends.
I don’t think I could ever stop being a voyeur. I just enjoy people watching so much. why stop doing what makes you feel good? And the pleasure I get from seeing little emoji’s under my posts makes it worthwhile. They’re little hugs of reassurance really. Which sounds twee and trite, but it genuinely is that way. I don’t know if I’ll ever know that feeling of being in love with somebody again, the kind of love that takes you away from the world and fills your heart with bombastic desires. so I have this, and my writing (such as it is) to get by on. I’m not actually as weird as I come across as. but y’know writing and acting are very similar in that characters live in your head, you find them leaking out in your daily interactions, sometimes colouring what you say with unexpected flourishes. And sometimes I wonder if the only real me left is the one hiding in shaded rooms, watching strangers in a strange land watching American sitcoms in just their socks. Life is thoroughly perplexing, the human mind more so. and a thumbs up beneath a forum post is the same as saying TL:DR so please don’t.
No you are not an odd fish and as I already explained in my OP it has helped me and my wife gain slowly but surely a way back to a normal life and maybe awakened something in her as I find her taking more notice of people and sneaky little looks from time to time and when I question her about it she giggles like a little girl, which is so cute.
Seven of my family have been through Covid 19 infection now. It makes you look at life differently when it touches you. Glad there’s hope for you and your wife. I know when my libido went west while I was on anti-depressant therapy the loss of libido was like a gut punch. I just felt constantly like there was something I’d forgotten to do. and from that same therapy I understand brain fog too. One day at a time, that’s all we can do. and hope in each one bringing something new, or enriching us. sounds like the path you’re walking.
Sitting having breakfast and just idly going through a couple of time lines, i was feeling introspective, came across this camera and remembered this question that you had asked. ‘What made me come to this site’. I am an older ( who’s kidding - old) man, divorced , but still appreciating the finer views in life. I acknowledging that i am never going to get my hands on something like this ever again, and am sitting here recognising the fact that this is a REAL GIRL, live. Wow I guess thats why i am here. A REAL GIRL, not a posed porn shot, but a REAL GIRL having her breakfast with her boyfriend. WOW Ain’t technology grand.
Respectfully, maybe you have your priorities wrong and maybe you should try finding a partner to love and share your life with
I even had an elderly relative of mine in his 70s who went to visit a prostitute once a week and he told me that she was very sweet and understanding - I guess what I am saying is just don’t give up on life as it is full of surprises and options.
It’s not about age although statistics say that older people get bigger problems because of their lower immune system, but it’s more to do with genetic makeup and if you have weakened genes then you will stand a bigger chance of a serious case.
In Poland, they have just identified the gene that allows the virus to affect these people with a more serious case of Covid19. Polscy naukowcy odkryli gen odpowiedzialny za ciężki przebieg COVID-19 - Bankier.pl
I dont where you are from but unfortunately every country has different rule and regulations.The UK highly recommends it but it’s not compulsory so i’m afraid it’t up to you to make your own mind up
I’m not sure if they would allow those tests because the governement policy is to have 100% of population vaccinated. Allowing those tests would make a lot of people pass on vaccines.
Thanks for your thoughts ukpolska, i probably sounded a little gloomier than really am. Having had many years of happy life i am probably selfish enough not to want to share with anyone not as good. i actually am enjoying life on my own, but just every so often crave what we are all enjoying looking at. I have considered the paid alternative but not got that far yet. Maybe on holiday next time i can get out to the far east.
I very much doubt that it will be available to the public in that way and will most likely be used after a positive test to see if a person needs further treatment.
Every mass vaccination in the past has been used to build a herd immunity in the population and that number for example with the MMR vaccine needs to be given to 87% of the population before it becomes effective. Covid is much the same and needs those same statistics to be effective and at the moment that number isn’t being realised in hardly any country.
Poland has only 51% of its population vaccinated and the UK has 78% with the highest country the UAE having 99% but there it is compulsory. Coronavirus (COVID-19) Vaccinations - Our World in Data
