and one more thing - I want to share it like with my friends - I had panic attacks during stress, I just didn’t know what it was and thought that I had problems with my heart. (It was the first time in my life 
) so now I know what was the problem and I’m recovering quickly))
and I really feel better, I’m not nervous or stressed + I have prescribed meds for recovery from my doctor))
And there will be no more scary cases where I will feel really bad physically)) I know how to deal with it now 
Very well said Bella 
Bella ur amazing 
I’m glad ur feeling better
Anxiety is a result of not feeling secure in yourself and or your environment. Everyone has their battles to fight. Just choose which fights are worth it. 
I usually masturbate when I am very stressed and can’t s___p, it helps to relax that is as a reason) I was stresses, not horny)
But in the morning with Leo - I was extremely horny and happy after all the talks with him
la via giusta ossigeno nuovo
You are 100% true, I had so much stress about my relationship with Leo, the project, criticism on the forum, an incomprehensible triangle with Tony: when Leo was jealous and I was drawn to Tony and didn’t understand why and so much more…but now everything is fine)) and I even feel less embarrassed in front of you all as viewers as before, and I’m even pleased now
Well, better then words you will see it soon in actions 
Was it your guys intention to come on vhtv to try with experimenting with your relationship, sexuality, or something else?!?
I would love to know what made you both want to try this?!?
Are you also going to write about your experiences for further analysis to help you with your psychological courses?
My respect for you Bella for talking so open to us. I hope that your relation ship will go on and get better and better. 
Your sexual interaction with Tony was great to watch. I hope there will be more.
si lo vista diversa
My personal opinion is, you have aroused many expectations in the forum during Tony’s visit by announcing that there has already been sex to 3.
Due to the fact that another Russian-speaking forum member also wrote that you want to increase the number of listeners, the thoughts of show dramas came to some.
I think spontaneous actions without advance notice look more realistic and are better received.
Of course, a lot/everything is also a business, but I don’t think it should always look like something like that, right?
I wouldn’t worry too much about this forum and letting it influence your life. There will always be lovers and haters on any given day. People will always try and find ways to be involved with something that they want and can’t control. So the haters try and destroy the very thing they can’t have, usually by manipulating, insulting behaviour and strategic lies and mis truths. Be smarter and recognise who and what these people are.
I think it’s time for you guys just to take a step back for a few days and breathe.
Relax and maybe meditate on what has happened in the last two weeks. Time for some introspection for both of you and be at peace with each other’s soul.
This will only strengthen your relationship and take the pressure off your shoulders. 
Sorry if I’m sounding like a ther____t and I’m off base.
But it’s just that I have been in this situation myself before and we made the same mistakes as well as learned from them.
Now your sorted with Leo and hopefully you can move on,if he ever does this again would you please consider seducing his m____r lol just a thought
tony ne zaman gelecek
tony ile beraber olmak leo kadar seninde hakkın…
I got it, Alley) your words resonate with me, thank you for the care) I really value a true advice that you gave me from your experience) I took the same decision with my ther____t))
We will have a lot of rest to get the energy back
I am just happy Bella that you come out of this happy and content. As for the Forum, it is not for us to judge you in any sense at all and I like many respect the fact that you and others on VHTV allow us to participate in your life out of which we get much enjoyment. We get even more value/enjoyment when you are good enough to take the time to explain what is going on from your perspective and thank you so much for doing that. 
Thank you, my dear friend